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Thursday, February 09, 2006

sserts

was alone on 963 today, listening to my mp3 player as usual. lots of thoughts flooded my mind, mostly negative ones though, just as what the stress lectures taught us, when ones in stress, signs like negative thoughts will come about. so why like that? is the devil playing manipulating us when we are at our most vulnerable? or we are evil by nature? perhaps we are too occupied with what we are doing that we do not even know when we step on the peoples' toes. i dunno, i dun believe so. its quite upsetting to realise that conflicts and quarrels among good friends are happening and sometimes you do not know which side to be on. just be neutral? thats what i always do. maybe i'm just escaping, its quite troublesome to be in such a mess, rather stay out of it. but sometimes, i do get negative thoughts too when i'm stress. this i realise when i came into dentistry. you start to become suspicious of your surroundings, wondering who your true friends are. but as time progresses, you'll start to see peoples' true colours and discover who your true friends are. if only people in school are like this Dr TPH, so nice and always encouraging, maybe then school will be a much better place. dentistry would be fun and learning wouldn't be a chore. maybe its the screwed up education system that emphasizes so much on academic excellence, so much so that people become so competitive that conflicts arises, but then again without competition, singapore wouldn't be who She is today. Fortunately, still have xx who is always so supportive. have been having this constant headache recently, wonder if i'm having any tumour or terminal disease heh just another dumb thought heh

Fortunately during the busride, zhong jie gu dan by Mayday was played. well, the lyrics was quite encouraging and has a cheerful tune. it kinda broke my chain of thoughts and well it was quite soothing heh perhaps i shall introduce a uplifting song once in a while so stay tune!

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